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i'm sorry i have no idea where to post this and if this is rhte right board at all or not. I've always had sleeping issues and problems withnightmares. but this is something that started only today, and if i decided to already ask for help with it it's because it feels really bad and wrong and is already getting out of hand. I started feeling strange today, and even being like 99 percent awake, only starting to doze off, i started seeing images like someone locking me up in a coffin tu burry me alive, 3 winged demons, crowds of crippled people with missing pieces and their cries from hell. and more and this all while almost totally awake. tried to go to sleep tonight not even an hour ago and i think i haad at least 10 different nightmaresd all one after another and allsomething like never before i owke up lots of ties and hoped they'd go away finally but i'd fall back asleep and a nother one would come. unseen beings watching, cars and other big huge bvehicles trying to run me over, being in some kind of hospital where they abuse and do experiments on patients, being tied up to an armchair while this guy would say strange words i couldn't understand biut could feel they were horrible and laughed at me, all these things with background sounds and atmosphere that gets your heart pounding while you're watching a horror movie even if you're not one who scares easily. one thing all these dreams have in common is thee people. they're all like authomatons. like controlled by something. and they their voice gives the chills. they appear normal but their way of talking feels like they're possedsed or something. in all of those dreams people are always like that. fight to stay awake but sleep comes with its nightmares like it, too, is fighting me. even now i am writing this i am fighting not to fall asleep again. iknow it started only tonight and i'm not one who asks for help randomly on line too often and espcecially so little time after having the problem, but then it means if i am doing it now it's for a reason. even awake i have a simply terrible sensation now. and needles to say i am scared to fall asleep like very little ever scared me before. and i know the typing is all messsed up but trying to write while gfighting sleep and the shaking. am i goign crazy or what, thsis feels like the worst wrong feeling i've ever had and those dreams. no way i can give a n idea. please if anyone ccan give e advice so i can sleep ok, or stay awake or. anything but this
Well first, you should figure out what may be causing this. Have you experienced any traumatizing events in your life? Have you recently been experiencing a lot of stress or anxiety pertaining to matters besides these nightmares? Have you been or are you around someone or something that causes you to be fearful?
honestly many of the nightmares i usually have, have to do with things that happened in the past. yes lately i amunder a lot of stress but i won't go into it right now, plus a lot of things are happening, and since this morning i've been having this strong feeling of something going on that i can't quite figure out, not sure how to explain it, if only i could get some real rest with some real sleep and my mind just quiet and relaxed for once. i really do want to fall asleep right now but don't know if i should let that happen
I'm sorry I don't have anything to say on your problem, but I just thought that this was really interesting. As soon as I opened up this topic winamp starts playing songs by Demon Hunter.
Paranoid schizophrenia? I'm not sure. I hope it gets better for you.
Okay, if your stressed...I think this might be the problem and if not I advise you to go see a sleeping doctor...can't spell the name of it.
*http://www.dreamsnightmares.com/sleepparalysis.html.
If not, there other stories out there...and if you use wikipedia it may help too.
Okay, and delete that asterics at the beginning.
firstly, I think we need to be careful about throwing terms such as "paranoid skitzofrenia" around, as this can only serve to make lori feel worse. Let's bear in mind here that this is the first time this has happened, and also that none of us are in a position to make any kind of judgements/diagnosis.
Secondly, Lori please stay away from google/the internet on this one. While the internet does contain a lot of valuable information, it is also full of a lot of misinformation, and it is easy to draw the wrong conclusions from things we read online.
The place between sleep and wakefulness is actually a point at which the brain and the subconscious is at its most vulnerable and open to suggestion, hence why hypnosis is such a powerful tool.
Actually the time when we dream is the time between deep sleep and full wakefulness.
If you're under a lot of stress, then it's entirely possible that your mind is trying to deal with this stress in the only way it knows how.
As your body relaxes your mind is going into overdrive and causing this intense reaction which in full wakefulness would probably present as a panic attack.
But the problem is that the reaction is so intense as to be terrifying. And the problem with it being that terrifying is that you fear it happening again to the point that it does.
So what you need to do is to break the cycle - if when you're drifting off to sleep you have this experience then get up, get a drink of water, think about something other than what you've just experienced, until you are feeling relaxed again.
Then go and lie down and think of relaxing things, don't let your mind drift to the demons and whatever else it is you saw the last time you were here. Do you have music you could listen to? just switching on the radio or the tv can help distract your mind from thinking about other things.
Concentrate on what it is you're listening to, and if you're tired enough you will drop off naturally.
Hth.
I've had similar experiences. If you want, PM me about it, or QN me if you see me on, and we can talk about this. Or, you can also refer to my Night Terror topic on Health and Wellness. It's a little different, but it might help.
I think sugarbaby gave fabulous suggestions; I agree that trying to diagnose Lori's problem will only make things worse...so words of encouragement would be best.
Nothing wrong with determining the cause of a problem, but referring to it as a mental disorder probably won't help things.
I think SugarBaby and others have done really well.
I am one who struggles with now-infrequent nightmares - either recurrences from growing up or similar. What I typically do is take a book and read it, and don't try and go back to sleep right afterwards. By just doing something else it can help, and I don't mean trying to 'not think about it' but just doing something else, if that makes sense. I only wish I had had SugarBaby's advice at your age as it actually does sound very constructive.
The other thing is related to the stress: A really hardcore high-voltage workout can really help you work off stress. I mean our ancestors were stressed by stuff that made them have to move, like a lion chasing them or whatever. Ours now is all internal and stuff but we seem to be wired to have to move aka work it off.
I'm not that educated on mental health stuff but that's what I usually do, and I understand that paralyzed state can be pretty freaky but I imagine Sugarbaby's suggestions are actually quite useful. I'll see myself if I can't incorporate them also.
I know it's tough but I'm personally glad you brought this up, I actually think it's rather brave. It wouldn't have crossed my mind to write about it on a forum someplace. You never know who could read this / the advice given here and end up geting help.
that was exactly what I was getting at, Jess.
I agree with the last poster; I'm glad you brought this up Lori. well done.
I second the poster who said not to classify it as a mental disorder, or sleep paralyssis either. I do like Sugarbaby's advice and would give that a shot.
thanks guys for the help. i did have to go and post it in a public forum like this. i felt i needed help badly and this place felt like the right one, with so many people who could read it.
i know i am under a lot lot of stress right now, there's much going on and most of the responsibility to take care of things, and people, is mine, and said people aren't always exactly appreciative of what's done for them. my family fights more often than they do anything else, and some times pretty badly, too. i try not to get involved but i am there and see it all. so as sugarbaby andothers said, all the stress does it. i've been so freaked out all day yesterday, i was scared of going outside but also of staying home, i couldn't put lids on boxes because i'd still feel like i was being locked up in that coffin, couldn't stay around people and every sound would make me jump. the same it's-all-wrong feeling i have in those dreams is still here even now. i tried to sleep with nature music in the back ground and it calmed it down a bit, but not too much. tonight it wasn't as bad as last night, but still images of children being hurt and crying in pain for hours, animals suffering the experiments, depressed lonely people saying i wasn't doing anything to help them. all in the times between being asleep and awake. and i wish this bad feeling would go away at least while i am fully awake.
sorry for the quite long post
No problem. It's good to get it off your chest.
This used to happen to me...
If you have or can find/make any jewelry of snowflake obsidian for the warding and amethyst for the emergency backup energy to power the wards in case something really bad happens and the obsidian does not contain the energy to handle it, that could work...I have a real solid silver chain somewhere with various ward configurations on it, I'll have to find it for you so I can tell you what I used.
I didn't post that there to diagnose that...I posted that site for her to see if that was what the problem was...when I first saw this others wasn't giving any good advice to her, so I posted that.
See, I never exsperience this type of stuff and if I do I forget about it as quickly as possible.
That's fine, but everybody has different ways of handling difficult situations. And, if it's a recurring one, it's probably very hard to leave it alone.
Wel, it just sounds like it's not just stress, but if you say your family is fighting more and more often, it's bringing back flashbacks of the past times and things. I've asked this to lory a few times, and while we've even talked about this off here, but it just sounds like some of the symptoms of what I have, ptsd. I don't have nightmayrs that often, but at times I can't sleep or anything at all. I do sometimes see visions that I can't get out of my head and things, and especially if i'm alone it gets extremely hard for me to focus on anything. so I do know what she's going through. The vissions, the stress, pluss lack of sleep is all pileing up on top of her, and the mind is tryig to help her fight this all the best way she knows how. as i've said lory, i'm always here if needed. finding some extremely calm music like that from liquid mind or something or hell even some stuff from enya should work, or try to fall asleep to the sounds of slow rushing waves or something.
hmm! freaky!
Hi.
I will give you a link for one of my recordings which is called morning start. I hope that it could help you relax by listening to it.
It is 15 minutes long.
http://dl.dropbox.com/u/1989628/Morning%20start.mp3
Good luck and all the best.
Well, to Zack, we're not sure...if this advice doesn't work from this board to be sure of anything you've seen here I'll suggest a doctor.
I dono englis but let me try with my broken english, now.
to be honest, my sleep gotten reduced gradually after my internet and online activities like chattin, reading news and online gamings and so on.
I personally feel this internet is really spoilling the sleep for many. including myself.
earlier days, I was going to bed by 9 and will wake up only 7 or after. but nowadays, I'm going to bed by 11 and waking up by 4 or 4:30.
curiosity, anciety like what's next, what will happen if we are getting all the green properties in monopoly. how to win this game. how to retaliate if someone's teasing us online. why that friend was being mean to me yesterday? such small thinks but big effects.
another thing which I can surely say the cause for my sleeping disorder is loss of my dad and my younger bro next to next years. whenever I'm not sleeping, they come in my mind. I think how they were talking to me earlier days. of course sometimes, I feel like they are coming in front and asking me questions.
I'm sure these are the things disturbing my sleeping hours. likewise, I guess some strong impact of some of your past events has recorded in your mind strongly and that's what disturbing your sleep too.
I personally suggest, change of place, change of work, change of surroundings and change of activities may gradually make you feel better. As sb said, good music is the best solution. I'm keeping my radio on while sleeping these days. that helps me a little.
Raaj.
raaj,
your advice actually sounds pretty good. a whole new start in a whole new place, whole new surroundings, new home, new everything, where no one knows me, where the past can gradually be left behind. and as off just a couple days ago, the present, too. now like never before your idea sounds like the best things to do. i don't think a board topic on here is the place where to go into details, so i will now.
yes, the past has a lot of influence in my sleep, but now, so does the present, and i fear the future. i hope i will soon be able to take your advice and start everything all over again, for what is possible.
thanks to all
sorry the last post sounds a bit messed up in the typing